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I just realized something...fuck you all..fuck everyone god damn last one of you. Im sick of my so-called friends. This is where i get rid of you all. Bitches.
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[01 Mar 2006|07:53am] |
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| You Are 86% Evil | 
You're the most evil person you know.
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[28 Feb 2006|08:00am] |
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Small update...I did indeed get the job. I now work for APS (American Pharmaceticual Services) by Omnicare. It's ok so far..just a sucky drive..but o well :P Off i go for day #2..hehe you said number two
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I have to go pee in a cup for a new job. This sucks =/
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Hmm i've been lazy about updating this........so much to write about. Will update later tho, going to watch a movie with my monkey :)
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[09 Jan 2006|01:51pm] |
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God i am so damn bored. One day its busy as hell...others im at a complete and utter stand still. Yes, im at work btw. Im just sitting here waiting for the dr's to fax me clinicals that i have asked for twice now...once i get them, i can call the ins company and intituate and authorization. then i have to wait for the precert nurses at the ins company to approve the auth before i can even process the meds for the patient. Thats all i do all day. Sit here at my desk typing away and making phone calls. its not too bad, just alot of work. I just got off the phone with my mom, we had a nice convo. She was asking if Im sure Rob is the one for me, cause i was talking of how when he gets his new job hes saving for my engagment ring. Told her he may be a dork sometimes and get on my nerves, but i do love him alot.He means more to me than i can say.
Anyways, last night i played mario party with brian. Wooo that was fun. I came in second place. Just wait till tonight my lil gay compadre....YOUR GOING DOWNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!
ooo boss is coming around,..gots to go.
Later bitches!
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[03 Jan 2006|07:25am] |
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Man, so tired....and i have hiccups. I hate work :( Nothing much to really report. We pretty much just hung around the house yesterday doing nothing. We did go driving for a bit but it was to nowhere special. We did have a great night of love making. I look over at Rob and see him sleeping quietly, curled up next to the warm spot where I was...and I just smile. God I love that man. Welp....off to get ready for work.
Later bitches
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[01 Jan 2006|09:33pm] |
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Hmm intresting. After months of silence...mr Sean gets bored and once again has to start posting harrassing comments in my journal. You would think people would grow up. I just explained the whole ordeal to my fiance, and he just shook his head and chuckled. "Some people just need to grow the fuck up" Well spoken. Brian said the same thing too. he just laughed and shook his head and said "jesus again? when is he going to find something to do with his life???" Oh well....we need the amusement around here :D
Anyways, on to better things. Things worth time. The boys and I went to New Symrna beach today. Just got back. We had a blast. Took a cooler of sandwich stuff and drinks and just chilled till dark. I found a crab on the sand and tried to catch it. But i got all girly and screamed and dropped it. Go figure :P The waves came and took him home. I almost got myself in trouble however. We just got out of the water and we're standing there shivering in our towels and this lady in a white skirt and shirt and jamacian hat was by the water. She was dancing and singing and had set down a home made boat by the edge of the waves. It was an aluminum pan with a popsicle stick and a lace flag on the stick. Inside it was filled with rose petals. She put what look like maple syrup around the boat and then crumbled up those potato chips made out of bananas (plantains) around it. Then she was dancing and singing as the waves slowly took it. One wave made it fly over and i ALMOST yelled out in a deep voice.. "YOUR GOD HAS FORSAKEN YOUUUUUU!!!!!!!" Brian cracked up so damn hard. Later we were sitting on the blankie and throwing bread at the sea gulls. Was hilarious. I threw a cheeto at one and he took off with it. Man it was a bloody battle! 6-9 others flew after him on a high speed pursuit while he was screaming as if laughing at them. It was carnagous i tell u! We then were throwing bread up in the air and letting them catch em. Well we packed up at sunset then went walking down the beach a ways. Came back after dark and left. We started home but then stopped at FairVilla (adult store) cause Brian wanted to get some dvds. I seen alot of things I wanna get/try. They had this awesome lil butterfly that straps on your hips and you turn it on. The butterfly part sits on your clit and vibrators hardcore. mmmmm. Rob was all excited seeing me gettin exicted lmao. I then seen something I want so damn bad and was extremely bummed out cause i couldnt get it...but its was one of those talkin toy parrots. Except this one cussed at you. It was hilarious!. It would scream 'hey dickhead!' or 'polly wants a crackker! polly wants a cracker! polly wants a FUCKING cracker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' and so many other things. We wer all laughing at it. Well now im home and just updating.
Oh and on a side note....grow up Sean. Its over with. Move on with your life. Your childish language doesnt bother me one bit.....actually entertains. I wont be unscreening any of his dumbass ramblings because...well.....hes not worth anyones time.
Later bitches <3333
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| Hope unknown, sometimes the water feels to real............. |
[01 Jan 2006|11:46am] |
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Well its now 2006. Happy New Years everyone =) Hopefully everyone had a fun and safe night. I know i did lol. We drank alot and got pretty shit faced. Jason and Brian passed out early so it was just Rob and I. We did the whole cheers at midnight deal and i got my New years kiss. A nice one too I might add. :P After that, we got Jason up to go sleep on the more comfy couch, and then got Brian up to go to bed. Man, that was a task on its own. Waking Brian up was like litterally waking the dead. Rob and I then retired to bed..aka went to pass out. Well...we did, eventually lol. We had the most hardcore agressive sex. It was awesome o.o
On to other things.... the new job is going well. I should have my own desk finally Tuesday when I go back. Their closed on the weekends...and if a holiday falls on a weekend, they give that Monday off too. So I got a 3 day weekend. Sweet. But yea, its going good. Ive been learning alot and getting into the groove of things. I pretty much will be handling prior auth claims. Sounds easy doesnt it? Well..its not lol. Its pretty tedious. But Its good pay and Im enjoying it.
So yea, thats the majority of my week...work. lol Fun eh? Well im off to do something constructive with my time...aka watch tv :O
Later bitches!
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First day of new job......Im so fuckin tired lol. I start today back at the Aetna mail order place...but this time doing insurance. Guess that means Ill have a desk job. Oh well. Im getting 10 more hours a week and 5$/hour more than GayMart (Kmart) was giving me...and i dont have to deal with people. Werd. Tis 630am, just got out of the shower, and i have to take Rob to work in 30 mins...will update more later
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| So dont let the world bring you down, not everyone here is that fucked up and cold............ |
[15 Dec 2005|12:05pm] |
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EDIT: After the journal entry of last night.....we did alot of talking.......alot of crying......and there was then alot of understanding. I never seen him cry so hard or so much. I am his world. And the thought of losing me destroyed that world. So yea. We have a understanding of each other and he's going to change. I love him....god do I love him. So damn much it hurts when Im not with him. But he needs to realize I cant and wont have that in my life. Anyways, after the hour long talk and cry fest....we watched Corpse Bride on my pc with Brian. We sat there and snuggled and went back to normal....if not stronger. I do believe it made our love stronger. He is the most incredible man I have ever have grace my life. I wont let him ruin his life or destroy something so perfect. If your reading this, and I know you prolly will....I love you Robert. I love you with every ounce of my being from the moment I first held you in my arms. I will hold you deeply in my heart for all eternity. Forever my monkey love. <3 =)
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| The only thing I need, kiss my disease |
[14 Dec 2005|07:26pm] |
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I guess you can say Im at a lost for words. I have no idea how to start this entry. Maybe im over reacting. Maybe not. All i know is how it made me feel inside. I sit here sniffling back the tears and shaking with hurt and anger. Rob has a problem with drugs. Nothing major mind you, just weed. He just cant seem to resist it. It gets to the point of annoying and aggrivation. He always asks to get some or if we can go to someones house to smoke out. Last month he deicied to be an idiot and smoke a blunt in MY car while driving. He did this with Jason and Brian. Brian didn't smoke tho, he doesn't. It pissed me off beyond anything. What if they got pulled over? All three of them would be put in jail and my car would get impounded. Or worse. What if they hit someone? Killed someone? Smoking at home every once in awhile is one thing...but when you act like a freakin addict....well....then you need to stop and look at your life. Now onto the problems now....Like I said above..he always tries to get some. Then i come home from work today...hes acting weird...kinda sluggish. Figured he was just tired. So im eating dinner he goes to the bathroom....Brian tells me. Rob decied at WORK to go behind the dumpsters and smoke a blunt with this fuckin retard named Tyrone who looks like hes nothing but a hooligan to begin with. He doesn't think. I swear. What if he got caught? There goes your job. There goes everything. Your ass is in jail. Even when you do get out....you think its gunna be easy finding a job with a drug arrest on your life record???? I dont want a man like that in my life. Its childish and just plain ignorant. Is your life that bad or boring that you have to go get high behind the dumpsters at fucking Wendys while working????? What the fuck is wrong with someone who thinks thats cool to do???? I tore into him about it before the tears just came. I started to shake and just said "you know, i have NEVER been disappointed in you as I am now..." and just started to cry. I got up and went outside to be alone. Few minutes later he came out and hugged me and was telling how much he ment to me etc.... and I decied in my heart and mind and flat out told him "It's either weed or me". I don't want a man in my life who is going to be like this. And i sure the hell wont wear his ring. My father has been a pot head since he was in the 6th grade...and it was nothing but verbal and physical abuse when he didnt have his "fix". Its sad. You dont think something like that is addicting....but over time it is..and it fucks with your mind. Granted, i do do it once in awhile....i admit that. But i dont crave it nor lie to those who love me about it. These simple lies and sneaking after he promised me he'd change just burned me to the core. I honestly don't know if I want to be with him anymore............
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[13 Dec 2005|11:57pm] |
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Today was a pretty fun day. I got to spend it with my baby..for once lol. We're both usually working or poor. Well....we're always poor but yea :P
Rolled out of bed around 10, and I got the joy of waking up sick. Stuffy nose, congested, coughing like a damn seal, slight fever, and the worse? BAD sinus pressure and headache. Oh my god, that is one of the worse feelings in the world lemme tell you. Felt like my eyeballs were going to pop out of my head. It sucked. Rob snuggled me for a bit and I being of the sick nature wimpered and started to cry lol. Well we got dressed and drove over to K-mart where he bought me some meds, a drink, and a candy bar. Such love =) We left there and headed out to the DMV in Tavares so he could get a license renewal/transfer. His was due to expire on Dec 20th...and he needed a Florida one ne ways (he still had the Alabama one). We waited there for a good 2 hours it seemed. It sucked. I did have to take a drive down the road and find and ATM for him cause we only had our bank cards on us...and the DMV only takes cash/check/money orders.....so yea. But like I said, we waited close to 2 hours if not longer...so its not like he had to wait on me to do so. After he got his sexy mug shot (lol) taken, we headed back home. We decied to stop at Habitat for Humanity when we got back into town. Its a thrift store my mom always goes to and finds shit. Well we went cause I wanted to see if we could find any butter knifes cause we only have 4 left. Well i found a whole set of 9 at 10 cents a peice. Then I also found a glass mosaic candle holder for 50 cents. Then i snooped around and found a nice thick blankie for Brian (we dont use the heat and its been cold here the past few days....he only has a thin blankie so i got him this thick one) It was only 3$. Rob whinned cause he wanted it lol but the lady told us it was buy one get one free...so he was happy. He got an afgan (a soft hand weaved type blankie) so he was happy. Hes snuggled up in it sleeping as i type lol. We then left there and came back home for a bit then went to lil Ceasars and ate lunch/dinner. Came back home for a bit again then went to Dollar General cause i had to get some things. Came home and chilled out till Brian got home. The boys then went over to Jasons for awhile. Around this time my sickness was coming back (meds wearing off) so i felt like uuber crap and passed out in the chair watching BeetleJuice. They got home and our neighbor came over and smoked out with Rob. Then Matt, Va-Gina, and Darren came over and watched some Invader Zim with us. They left and Rob and I fooled around. We then went and watched Evolution (he passed out on the couch)....I woke him up and made him go to bed and here I am :)
Yea....i feel better now lololol :P
Later bitches <3
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[08 Dec 2005|03:33pm] |
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I played hookie from work today. I just didnt feel like going I suppose. I need to start looking for a better paying job. Rob was talkin to our neighbors below us (we're in an apartment) and they do construction.....they may hire him on. I hope so, he'll be making a hella lot more money than flippin burgers at Wendys. And my sexy man will get all muscular and mmmmmm *drools* hehehe. Speakin of which....i must say this now...cause of last night i did scream out loud..and i do mean scream. I tried so hard to refrain from too.....but yea, he is such an amazing lover. To think..this incredible, sexy, caring man is mine for the rest of our lives. Its mind boggling lol. Anyways..i got bored a bit ago and took a pic with Loki (the bunny rob bought me a month ago.)
( Pictureeeeeeeeeee )
Later bitches <3
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| All these tattoo'ed angels have brought me back today.... |
[07 Dec 2005|12:54pm] |
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bitches, bitches, bitches....Im back! Fuck yea! Things have been crazy lately since ive been offline...but ill try to recap the more important stuff....
Rob and I are doing great. Our love gets stronger every day. Feels good waking up in his arms and seeing his precious face sleepin next to me. Christmas is rapidly approachin...im hoping he and Brian enjoy the gifts i got them.....Id say what it is...but they may read this >,< Bastards lol
Dano and Sara are gone. I kicked their asses out. You wanna talk about a lazy, self loathing, mooching, lunatic, peice of human trash? Then talk to Dano. Course in all his "mature" glory when they left, they left the room trashed. Kinda upset Brian cause it was going to be his room. They left holes in the wall and ceiling and scratched "fuck jenn" on the window sill. Then that night, Dano got up in the attic and rigged and alarm to the ceiling above our bed....to wake us up. Well jokes on him, cause the apartment complex is pressing charges on him. Hes a lunatic. Enough said. Hes also too lazy to get off his ass and get a job. He mooches off Sara and shes too blind to see it. Hes also got her brain washed. Shes not the same person she was. Anyways, rob and I got in a lil spiff one day.....Dano comes runnin out of his room and says something about me being a stupid bitch. Well that sent Rob over the edge. They were ready to kill each other. Dano screaming at him "cmon you motherfucker! ill kill you!" etc... And then he slammed a screw driver into the wall twice. So i told them to get out. I talked to our neighbors...their happy their gone too. They said Dano was loud and obnoxious (with his constant screaming and fighting) I told em what he did and they agreed that he seemed like a nut job. I just hope...Sara opens her eyes and sees him for what he REALLY is. Ever wonder why hes been alone Sara or why no one ever wants him???????? You could do so much bettter for yourself....we all see it...and we all know it. Oh well. She'll find out on her own.....
Its just been so peaceful with just my boys and myself here. They even agreed that the atmosphere of the place has changed. It doesnt feel like your walking on glass or something. I did rearrange the living room the other day and it looks great. I put Loki's cage out there so he can run around--he seems to rather enjoy that lol.
Well...Im off. My father is coming over to fix the bullshit the morons left behind. yea Dano..your 25....maybe its time you acted it. Fool.
Should have some pics next post =)
later bitches!
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[05 Nov 2005|01:43am] |
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Well so much to report and so little time...that and im just lazy heh.
Lets recap the past month with no cable.....
Rob did move down to be with me a month ago. Things have been super. I've never been so happy. It's an amazing feeling to finally have that one true love in your life. He completes me and I him (as he has told me many times). Brian says we're like lil puppies in love...but honestly? Feels like my love for him grows stronger each passing day. I found my "one" and its about damn time o.O heh
Money has been hella tight (hence no cable) but things are starting to look up as we all got jobs (cept Dano, but lets not get into THAT again). It's been chilly out but now with an income coming in I'm definatly looking forward to another day at New Symrna.
Before Rob got here, Dean, Brian, and I all went and got peircings. Brian got his PA (Prince Albert, yes, his penis) redone. He had it a year ago but took it out and it closed up. Dean got his septum done (bullring in nose for you non-peircing people :P) He seems to be very happy with it and i think it looks hella cool on him. Go Hitler! hehe. As for me...I got my hood peirced.(clit peircing) Its healed nicely and I'm pleased with the results........as is Monkey :O (Rob).
We finally went on a date last night as we havent since he got here cause we poor yo. (Walmart doesnt count!!) Well..it was sorta a date cause I got Brian to go with us. We all went and hit up Friendlys and had a great time. After a bet, we got brian to snort a line of Sweet 'N Low. Funny shit. I laughed hella hard. After we headed up to the PierHouse to shoot pool, but lo and behold, their shut down--again. Last time it was for serving minors alcohol. I wonder what for this time. So brian got the idea of heading to Fairvilla (adult mega store), and we did just that (Side note, on the way there we found a "ghetto santa" doll. Hilarious shit. It was a black thug santa who rapped. I got a huge kick out of it.) Anyways, we got to Fairvill aand Nikki poo was there. So we hung out with her and her boy Josh for a few before looking around. So many fun things...so lil money lol. I am in love and want the new porn Pirates (suppose to be hella good, kinda a take of Pirates of the Carribean) Well we ended up getting some things, face mask and ball gag which rob was extremely excited to use one me. Also...they have this vibrating cock ring. 20$. Well CVS has the SAME one (by Trojan) for 9 dollars. Its a one time use (maybe two on the ring) but lemme tell u..its WORTH every penny. (We stopped at CVS and got it on the way home)
Lets see./...OH! also, Rob bought me a baby bunny :D I was so happy. He's a dwarf rabbit with lil itty bitty ears. Grey with dark grey face and legs. Hes SOOOOOO adorable! I fell in love with him the instant I seen him. We named him Loki.
Thats all i can think of at the moment o.O Hopefully in the next month we should have cable back. Ill update regulary then :P
Later bitches
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[19 Oct 2005|05:23pm] |
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And the job quest continues...........
Sucks ass.I still dont have internet connection at the house. News to those who dont know..... Rob did move down here, I've never been happier. He means the world to me.
I should have cable soon.
Later bitches!
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